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Monday, November 17, 2008

// 4:49 PM;

you ruined my birthday this year.
just like you did last year, only thing i was lucky that i had a birthday wish from yuzhe to keep myself happy.

But this year, you completely ruined it. Completely.
you ~~said~~yelled so many hurtful words.
you called me stupid
you said i was being disgraceful
you forced me to go out after i cried my eyes out
you said we were to celebrate my birthday. but was it even a celebration? you made me queue and wait for a gazillion hours for yours and brother's bloody handphones.
the best thing was, you didn't let me queue at IMM, instead you make me wait for you to buy handphones. And the ultimate BEST thing was: the handphones weren't even for me.
they were for your ever so great and smart son. the one who scored a single A in his promos. and me? SIX BLOODY As and not even a present. instead, you say it's not enough.

i don't know how am i suppose to not cry and not be rude to you.
all i just want, is to SEE fahrenheit. not even go near. i already accepted that fact that i'm not going for the concert, i won't get their autographs. and even SEE also cannot.
why can't you be like other mums, and allow their daughters to meet their idols. why can't you be like your sister, my aunt, who climbed the barrier for my cousin to get an autograph.
WHY?

my life seriously sucks.
i have no life.
i never felt so emotional before. i even have no tears left to cry.
thanks man, this is such a great GREAT birthday memory.

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